Free Fall; A reflection By Chad Killinger


What is it about today? Are you able to jump feet first into this all perfect, yet rare opportunity, that only us lucky few get to experience? Is Life really so complicated or do we make it complicated? What if it’s just waking up next to the one you love and noticing the way their features soften in the morning light, or how gentle their chest raises and lowers with each dreaming breath?
What if it’s just laughing with your child and inviting yourself into their world of abstract love, unconditional smiles? Maybe it’s stepping outside and tasting the air of a new morning and looking up at a totally different sky than the day before. Could it be appreciating the familiarity of the neighbors barking dog? Is it the excitement of discovering something new? Maybe about ourselves or others…
Why do we let our minds trick us into fear? Will the teacher be afraid that their students think they’re frauds? Does the pastor fear his congregation finding him a hypocrite? The fast food employee feeling less important than the individual they’re serving “To Go” in the suit? Will people follow you when called to lead? The questions of rejection and the harshness of our own self judgment, “I can’t…”, “This is impossible for me…”, “I’m not deserving…”. Why do we do these things to ourselves?
What is it about you today?
Do you want to love? Do want to laugh, sing, cry? Do you want to build something great? Do you just want to exist? Did you get to say, “Good bye…”?
The end is so close and we make the experience of life so difficult sometimes.
Missed deadlines and missed opportunities. Missed connections and missed eye contact. Lost relatives and lost jobs. Trivial worries and insignificant agendas. Is it so complicated that we keep missing a bigger picture?
Are you going to hold a hand today? Are you really going to hold on to that apology? Can you step out of your comfort zone to be a blessing and hope for another? Can you let go of that which stops you from enjoying what you already have? When you lay your head down and close your eyes does it get louder? What really is the vice that holds you back?
When we are born, we are in a free fall. Some of us fall with grace and beauty and some of us fall with arms flailing and grasping for anything and everything we can hold. Fear is an anchor on our back and anger is a jet pack spiraling us down. The floor is coming faster than you think.
What is it about today? Is it the pleasant aroma of coffee? Is it getting to start over and creating again? Is it just staring and admiring the remarkable invention of love and free will? Are things so complicated?
Are your fears worth validating? Be vulnerable. Is this a sign? Be open to it. Is this the End? Perhaps it’s the beginning of something bigger than you or I.